The Quest to be Gainfully Employed

running out of steam

2010-11-22T13:56:00.000+09:00

Really tired. Fact is i should be concentrating on my CITPM, truth is, i'd rather just pass JLPT. i know, wtf, LOL. but i would like to think that i can pass both :). such busy days means that i feel slightly annoyed and angsty, especially at work, where i don't think i get to really do what i want or set out to do. but i think at the end of the day, it does get the bills paid, and it's a

m1 broadband roaming

2010-11-21T00:43:00.003+09:00

just got the cheapest most basic plan (think it was 13.xx/mth). the wifi at ikoma is not reliable. truth to be told, i could have just gone home in a heartbeat to study. but i guess i'm easily distracted, and i feel just all too slightly too comfortable at home. so i lug all my barang to ikoma, such a heavy bag, i must say, and then just camp there. food at orchard is expensive, so it's really

busy and tiring days

2010-11-17T23:39:00.000+09:00

today feels like a breeze, although a little too quiet. I guess somehow i feel like i'm not connected to the world somehow. my friends are all kinda doing their own thing, which is kinda what i'm doing as well, and i guess everybody becomes their own silos, despite some sort of need to connect. it's almost a welcomed oxymoron. i had a weird bug bite on monday nite. what seemed like two

if X ain't doing his job, he should quit

2010-11-08T23:13:00.000+09:00

I always thought stupidity is all about people who are totally out of whack and such. of course my mum belongs to that category, but she's not THAT dumb. just heard over the news about the monetary policy of US, more commonly known as "money printing". my mum's response? "he (obama) doesn't know what to do. he should step down." and i was like wtf? it would have driven me crazy the last time

my new coffee toy!

2010-10-31T22:26:00.005+09:00

The Hario Mizudashi series. Glass container (it's afterall a Hario), and plastic covers and stuff. I've yet to do a simple rinse of that stuff, but I think this coffee would fit in well with the "coffee anytime, anywhere" and good for a hot summer's day (which is like almost every day in Singapore). Kinda excited about the potential of this device. I bought it at $23 at Takashimaya. I think the

mytablet -- perfect

2010-10-31T19:58:00.002+09:00

I've been wanting a tablet to do one million things that my n95 is not doing. The Symbian OS can be frustrating, since it's on the decline. since my phone can only work on the edge networks here, and I'm on a prepaid plan, i'm using it just like a traditional phone, unless the place has free wifi (don't get me started on wireless@SG, where being able to log on is not a given) That said, I've

人缘

2010-10-25T21:38:00.001+09:00

人缘真的是复杂的事情。没有常理规律，有的只是心跳规律而已。回想起当时因为郁闷，被人说自己的日文烂。友人便建议说，不如来我目前所上的日文学校来看看。有一天应该就是闷得发慌，便立刻到学校看看。结果等了近3小时吧。一位说日文如机关枪的K老师出现了。没有时间消化，甚至没有时间答应。就是听得懂，却没有给我回应的时间。就这样没有入门试，凭她一句“大丈夫”，交了钱，明日上课。周末是D老师的课。我完全懵懵懂懂地上了一节课，过后就连续上了两节K老师的课。 K先生的课我真的不敢恭维。没有思考的空间。她就像机关枪，狂风扫落叶般。即使你课后问她问题，她也客气地简略解释了一下，便立刻不见人影。非常恐怖。结果两课后，我便转到D老师的课。这个应该是非常明智的决定。因为个人有好奇心，所以上网google了她的履历。结果就找到了她的电邮。我是一个很喜欢电邮/IM的人，便送了一封电邮，打了个招呼。非常讶异的是，

压力/激励

2010-10-24T08:56:00.001+09:00

常常以这个来开玩笑。压(鸭）力vs激（鸡)励。最近有点睡眠不足，而且心跳加速。应该是某种隐性的压力。其实工作也没什么，生活也没打不了的事情。也许就是有一点情绪上的不平衡吧！运动也许可以减轻压力，我就是懒。也许就是因为睡眠的周期性被干扰了。但是最近就是有点累。回到新加坡后，胃痛发作的次数可说是激增。饮食方面比较不定时，有时9或10点才吃饭。这是我父母的“问题”，虽然我可以自个儿吃，但是就是这样一家人的感觉还是会有点怪。也许是东西太多，觉得有点压力。觉得自己的抗压性还是属于低的那种。应该做个海绵宝宝，把所有的压力和养分都洗个/吸个干净。

a damn mosquito!

2010-10-22T10:00:00.001+09:00

damn that mosquito! kept me awake since 3:15am. i did contemplate on not going to work today, but my commonsense got the better of me. there are some loose ends to tie up for today, but i think if there's nothing much, i might just ask to go back early, since the haze is also kinda making me feel like crap. i dropped by ikoma on wed, i think? and i realised that whenever i talk about

TVB 巾帼枭雄-- 义海豪情初评

2010-10-20T09:20:00.000+09:00

开始的剧情就有点勉强。敖嘉年的演技非常弱，演得太卖力，太露痕迹。成天把苦情放在脸上，那倒是因剧情所需。但是那种表情就太over了，就变得有点卡通化。说到敖嘉年的奶奶如何有caller ID得知警局的电话，那真的是太过高科技。剧情目前的发展，有点太过巧合，有点要把热闹炒起来的感觉。尤其是“烧抢”那一幕。虽然敖嘉年因为枪声太大而变成暂时耳聋，听不见黎耀祥的说话，在惊慌之下不知所措。但是，人的正常反应，即使在极度恐慌中，也会喊出“我听不见，我为什么突然听不见“这样的话。尤其在黎耀祥停止对他呼呼喝喝，开始教导他开枪的时候，敖嘉年有充足的时间说自己完全听不见。另外，敖嘉年过后一直说的“我应该扣扳机”这样的话。敖嘉年从乡下到省城，怎么会有枪械的知识，甚至知道扣扳机这样的话语，那他也应该知道安全钮的知识吧！其实对这剧有点失望。虽然我没有期待此剧超越，或和巾帼枭雄一样成功，

Quick Translation of Matsuyuki Yasuko's Interview for Perfect Report

2010-10-19T23:54:00.004+09:00

Taken from Fuji TV 1. Q: You are the anchor actress for the inaugural drama for the new time slot "Dramatic Sunday". A: It's a great honour, but I feel the pressure at the same time. "A new time slot for Sunday, I hope that it will be a production that will give an extra energy boost for people going to work on Monday", that's what I've asked of producer Ota. I really hoped that this can become

秋ドラマ

2010-10-19T22:49:00.004+09:00

I'm currently watching "Perfect Report" (パーフェクト・リポート), "Iryu 3" (医龍３), "Guilty" (悪魔と契约した女) and "Second Virgin" (セカンド・バージン). Simple ranking goes 1) Second Virgin -- Perfect Report 3) Iryuu 4) Guilty Guilty is kinda a mixed bag of things. The plot is kinda, I guess the ever popular Keiji Drama, but there ain't really something for me to catch on to. I guess I'm only catching it cos of the

my thoughts on the "bear stunt" viral in Singapore

2010-10-15T00:45:00.000+09:00

My first reaction towards this "viral" was that it reminded me of the "aqua teen hunger force" viral that brought Boston down to its knees. I honestly think that taxpayers' monies should be better spent, but then again, who could have thought that it would be so "effective". That's right, these viral promotion companies want their silly ideas to achieve instant fame, so they actually wanted

交渉人the movie

2010-10-14T23:03:00.004+09:00

I'm a pretty big fan of the series, since negotiations are always almost a mix of fortune telling and psychology, a very sexy combination. Saving people with intelligent (cheap) talk? Man, that's like a slick salesman. I'm not sure if this "negotiator" concept is original, but I don't think it is. The copycat is a TVB series 谈判专家. TVB is excellent in monitoring Jdrama trends and adapt the formula

pain is not inevitable

2010-10-12T23:33:00.001+09:00

i wish we could be happier, really. just because we share this space, during this unique point in time, and somehow, pain shouldn't be in the picture. i don't believe that pain makes sweetness all the cherished. We should simply learn to cherish the good things in life, and then come up stronger and better after the bad things in life. but pain, no, pain is not inevitable.

头痛

2010-10-09T20:48:00.001+09:00

不知是否是睡不好，或是天气太热的关系。今早起得早，甚至掏钱搭德士到国大，非常轻松。结果到了下午，紧绷性头痛就发作了。可能是咖啡因的刺激，但是也应该没有太大的关系。也是就是人老了，精神差了，一点的资讯激荡，脑袋就不管用了。还得感谢热心的导师们，为我找来了班纳度。多快2小时了，还是头痛。嗯，我也不应该为头痛而头痛。不过还有大堆的日文资料，得加油！

2010-10-06T02:49:00.001+09:00

走在人与人之间交流的廊道我们的心偶尔会迷惘胆怯受到伤害却又寂寞难耐继续漫无目的地寻找眼神交流之间没有自设墙壁心意快速传递时间没有回头的余地何苦纠缠不放？闭上眼睛，听见心跳那是生命最初的预兆张开双臂，热烈拥抱这一刻，可以有爱的时光。

2010-10-03T23:12:00.000+09:00

空间的氛围，很想有情绪却又有程序地抓住。这么美妙的时光，音乐在围绕着。低音提琴，很好听。柔美的钢琴，吟唱着的小提琴，游走于低沉扎实的音律。我很想拥抱这样的一种时刻，调着酒，就这么沉醉着。也许这个年纪一事无成是可耻的，我也这样觉得。但是到底还是可以算是愉快的。见过的人，遇到的事，可以让我放宽胸怀，坦诚自己，接受一些情绪，沉浸于更多的情绪。已经这么久没有这么情绪的发挥，应该是少做了编程。这是一件好事，取得了一定的平衡。诗人的醉意。

黄韵玲--巴结音乐

2010-10-03T22:50:00.000+09:00

重温黄韵玲的巴结音乐。赫然发现那是2001年的专辑。真得那么久了。这样的bossanova，这么轻柔的音乐和声音，如此的2001年。专辑以“会过去的”来结尾，我觉得是一种完美，也是一种句点。一切都会过去，只是需要时间沉淀，更需要时间来舒缓冲击。作词：黄韵玲和朋友们　作曲：黄韵玲　编曲：黄韵玲会过去的　是你的美丽　和我最想念的春天花开花谢　青春不再回来　心中的美梦你可别落空会过去的　是你的表情　和我最想念的夏天日复一日　过去怎么不回来　往事都随风飘去如尘埃　啦... 会过去的　是你的犹豫　和我最想念的秋天花开花谢　青春不再回来　这记忆却如形影惹情怀　啦... 会过去的　是我的惆怅　和你最想念的冬天日复一日　过去怎么不回来　往事都随风飘去如尘埃会过去的　是你的美丽　和我最想念的春天日复一日　过去怎么还不回来　往事都随风飘去如尘埃明天的明天是否还有梦

死寂的十月

2010-10-03T08:48:00.000+09:00

十月，从儿童节开始，或说中国国庆日开始，本是一个有节庆喜气的月份。但就是接二连三的死讯，蒙上一层沉重。说她是国母，也许是严重了，但或许也差不远了。新加坡的成就，不能归功于一个人。但是中国革命成功，也并非孙中山一个人的功劳。历史就是这么写，人也就这么说。但是一个聪慧的女人，尤其在那个年代，就是默默耕耘，站在男人的背后，无条件地支持他。也许现在的社会变了。但是即使是克林顿当总统时，他也是得依靠希拉里出谋献策，顾家教子。但是，现在的奥巴马，他是否有这样的贤内助？我觉得米歇尔是一个比较随性的人，对权力也许没有太大的野心。我真的没有太多的想法，只是觉得有点伤感，和对死者生前的贡献致敬。我不相信天国，只相信今生得做对自己和所爱的人好的事，要开心，要珍惜彼此，快乐的让生命有所意义。

numbers, lies and agenda

2010-10-01T19:22:00.000+09:00

i read some of these numbers on a today online report earlier this morning. but this is again food for thought. http://www.pressrun.net/weblog/2010/09/singapore-accepting-fewer-prs-and-foreigners.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+rana+%28Pressrun.net+%28originally+Blowin%27+in+the+Wind%29%29 Year Total population (000) Total resident population (000) Citizens (

黄韵玲的婚姻

2010-09-26T23:33:00.001+09:00

很很很喜欢黄韵玲。她的音乐很容易和我产生共鸣。印象最深刻的是《心动》，她的BassoNova专辑。觉得音乐的诚恳太好了，非常令我感动。今晚看综艺大哥大才得知她的婚姻触礁了。我一直认为她是一个如此有才华的音乐人，但是愿意淡出，相夫教子，做一个平凡的住家大嫂。这种心态，对幸福的认知，在娱乐圈应该是非常少有的。试想，谁不想在欢呼和“才女”的光环下生活？黄韵玲给我的感觉就是那种随性，有点慵懒，却深深明白平凡的幸福的女人。似乎传统的华族男子对不忠/外遇有着非常“理所当然”，“宽容处理”，甚至“见怪不怪”的态度。这是非常要不得的。不过我还是希望她可以幸福、快乐地活下去。这个世纪的女人，靠着男人/家庭得到幸福，还是没有随着时代的进步而改变。

almost a week, sort of

2010-09-23T21:54:00.000+09:00

i wonder if i'm doing enough, or doing better. who knows, who is to judge? work is not that bad, given that everyday i don't pay much on meals nor on transport, so hopefully i can try to make up on the finances. i think i have to take at least 3 paychecks to break even, sigh. can't change the situation, just have to let time make it up for me. looking forward to december, really, i think it

mid autumn madness

2010-09-22T20:07:00.000+09:00

it's been a long time i did celebrate mooncake/mid-autumn festival. i did buy a mooncake two years ago or something, and we sat at the parking lot to take a look at the skies to try catching the moon. but it was a cloudy night, so it's really hard to see anything. but nonetheless, it's always about who you are with than what you get to see. the folks at work are pretty pumped up with the

李香兰

2010-09-21T00:56:00.002+09:00

<李香兰>一直是我喜爱的歌曲之一。我是听过张学友和玉置浩二的版本而已。友人突然在面簿贴上了张学友的linda，让我想起了李香兰。从youtube一找，第一个出现的竟然是齐豫的版本。听了一次，非常着迷。当然她的粤语发音还有待改进，但是她天籁的歌声却很完美地体现了这首歌柔美的一面。尤其在她唱“不”和“心”的粤语发音，就有非常齐豫式的唱腔，真的非常有感染力。有人说听齐豫就如洗了个澡一样，干净且平静。我觉得听齐豫就是有一种说不出的柔美和优美，就是歌声和音乐很贴切的结合的舒服。作詞：松井五郎作曲：玉置浩二なにもみえない　なにも　ずっと泣いてただけど悲しいんじゃないあたたかいあなたにふれたのがうれしくて ※Ah　行かないで　行かないでいつまでもずっとはなさないで Ah　行かないで　行かないで　このままで※ いつか心は　いつか遠いどこかでみんな想い出になると知

jappy + baby!

2010-09-19T20:16:00.000+09:00

woke up slightly late today for the jappy class, and ended up didn't quite study for the grammar parts. grammar, urgh, you are my nemesis! den sensei has really pumped up the teaching of grammar, much to my delight. i'm not sure if it's because i keep telling her i suck at grammar, but nonetheless, she really explained a lot of it in detail, and now it's really up to useless/lazy/forgetful me to

The need for privacy

2010-09-14T12:09:00.001+09:00

It's possibly culture or it's just a blatant disregard of the security of private details, but in Singapore, people are expected to willingly tell any stranger their NRIC (or surrender their NRIC), their date of birth, marital status, etc. I always wonder why such details are required in job applications, lucky draws, etc. Most will respond that it's 1) standard operating procedure (i.e. it's

early / odd

2010-09-05T10:27:00.001+09:00

i love going for my jappy class early. the roads are clear, the streets are, well, not empty, but with few people on it. it's just relatively quiet and pleasant. i like this feeling. when i get to the premise, it's also quiet and only the receptionist is around. it just makes everything feel so good. singapore has become a nightmare of people everywhere anytime for the past few years, and

Who are the jobless?

2010-08-23T17:29:00.003+09:00

I was reading this blog entry Poly, not uni, grads least likely to be jobless and of course it feels ever so bitter. yep yep, still jobless, yep yep, still trying to remain hopeful, whatever, that's besides the point. take a really good look at the degree holder's predicament. the y-axis are % values

天天天晴

2010-08-23T15:22:00.002+09:00

我基本上非常同意这部环境剧太过脑障。故事闷，角色之间没有伏线，同事之间关系没有火花。就说"没事问”，她到底是一个什么样的角色，胜任什么样的工作，其实也没有人知道。她好似就是Kitty #2替身的感觉。就说aimee和王喜的故事，说到爱护动物、环保，都是很好的主题。讲完了之后，却就很少看到aimee出现，即使出现也是花瓶，完全没有戏。王喜也是在同时间充当花瓶。不知是编剧还是演员档期的问题。不过王喜已经淡出，档期应该没有问题，就不知道编剧是怎么想的。整套戏现在就是“楼上”办公室政治，但是同事之间就完全没有互动。我觉得张雪芹非常漂亮：）虽然不是那种惊艳型，但是就是我喜欢的那种类型。当然编剧非常狠心地安排了一个不讨好的角色，但是作为演员，就是得敬业演好角色。觉得她的可塑型很高，希望可以从此得到TＶＢ的重用。最后当然是第三者太多的剧集。蓝精灵和kitty都是第三者，

the magical world of でる

2010-08-22T11:36:00.001+09:00

でる・でます, it's a very simple basic word when i'd first learnt it. OUT. like i head out. very easy, definitely in terms of conjugation as well. 電話にでる。answer the phone. from an english point of view, there is no way that this can make marginal sense. but that's the verb associated with it, so from an "answer" point of view, "out" can just mean out to answer, but where the hell does out = answer?

singapore botanic gardens

2010-08-21T01:18:00.001+09:00

quite a nice place really, of course it has a tad of this british feel to it still, perhaps, which can be nice at times. the people there are definitely quite nice and friendly, and perhaps a bit laid back, perhaps thanks to the lush greenery that surrounds them (so they not so damn stressed). i guess my only gripe is that they are so far from the main road, and it's a good walk of possibly

gold ep 6

2010-08-19T18:30:00.003+09:00

the story is still very frilly and loose, urgh, it does feel quite lemony this far. what i can't understand is 1) the hiding of that guy being shuichi's son. what is the patriarch father thinking? that he wants his grandchildren to commit incest? that's so ridiculous. and all this to "cover up the scandal of the suicide". right, incest vs suicide, very good. 2) the forced storyline of amami

a really bad cold

2010-08-19T15:27:00.000+09:00

it felt at first like the one million allergies i've had ever since i've got back to singapore. but it took a wicked twist, when zyrtec didn't quite do the job. after 2 days of zyrtec, my two nostrils take turns at being stuffy and runny at the same time, which makes it almost impossible to sleep. went to the polyclinic on the morning of wednesday, even the doctor was surprised that i can't

punk chet, damn!

2010-08-12T20:26:00.000+09:00

so today i was hoping to ride my bike to NUS ISS, then i was going over this uneven pavement, i bet there is this sharp end to this unevenness loh, cos my tyre punk chet loh. super sianz. so i locked up my bike at the bike stand at queenstown MRT, then flagged a cab to get to school right. then, biang eh, see the jam all the way trying to enter AYE and the science park exit. it's like super

2010-08-11T01:52:00.002+09:00

一脸的痛我无法释怀爱莫能助只有心跳动开始紧凑撕裂的痛叫不出的痛却同样的感受深夜就是有这样的魔力让感觉敏锐因为身上的伪装和抵抗开始薄弱甚至是脑中压抑着的思想此刻释放奔跑只有咖啡因作为解药正在等待是否能够登场解救 while listening to utada hikaru's Letters. 节奏一直走想要唱出这样的痛却没有精力深夜就是有这样的沉默随着节奏和旋律 tell me that you're never gonna leave me then you go again what the hell is going on......

hip hop boxers

2010-08-09T01:13:00.003+09:00

for those who are in the queestown GRC, you would see baey yam keng's face plastered everywhere. but if you've got the current issue of the newsletter (focus), and look closely, you will notice that 1) it seems that he wears the same pair of pants (even the belt) when he does his walk arounds 2) on the first story that he was featured on, if you look closely, you will see the colour of his boxers

2010-08-08T21:54:00.001+09:00

思绪想手机响我的键盘正响亮米饭香口袋饷失业良久翻身无望口中唱心荡漾我要把希望放嘴上痛漫长咖啡凉歌儿唱着期待飞翔

倾斜

2010-08-06T20:50:00.001+09:00

while listening to isan -- betty's lament 倾斜的角度看着你的脸扭曲的质感纳闷着这种角度是否恰当酒精的陶醉在自我意识手指触碰到水珠是一种温差和空中水分我缓缓呼吸思绪慢慢连线尝试幻想出另外一个世界中的你我角度却依然倾斜随着因兴奋而放大的瞳孔意识形态下继续扭曲

镜子

2010-08-05T11:50:00.001+09:00

镜子是光学作用的物品。就是通过因为某种物体无法透光，且可以反射光的原理，让这个影像出现在这个物体上。人很多时候需要照镜子，就是因为看不到自己。为什么要看到自己呢？因为需要知道自己是什么样子，就是得利用另外一个物体来看看自己。眼睛因为长在脸上的这个部位，让我们看不到自己的脸。很多时候，自己的心情，并非可以通过反省看得出来。很多情绪上的东西，出现在脸上，别人都看见了，唯独自己看不见。如何“借一双眼”，通过他人的眼睛，看见自己的心情和情绪，这是非常有趣的东西。就说是好朋友，他们可以是一面镜子。但是任何的言语表达，都是通过心灵和思考所投射出来的东西。所以他们说的东西，不但是一面镜子，这个影像也经过过滤。这就是为什么有人，就有事，也就有是非的源头。不过，当然往正面的方向去想，如果可以好好地利用这么多的镜子，经过平常/平静的心灵过滤后，所得出的讯息。这也是探索/

gold ep4

2010-08-04T00:35:00.000+09:00

ok, this drama is really getting too loose and everything looks like a filler. the main plot this ep is regarding the beauty salon manager's (souma) past, hence giving amami (yuri) yet another long monologue moment about "life". great. the other main development is that we now know for sure that ren has a heart problem, and then the legendary brother actually committed suicide and has a kid.

sytwig sytyskag

2010-08-01T21:30:00.001+09:00

so you think who is gay, or perhaps, sythia (so you think he is androgynous). or sytysbag so you think you should keep a girl ok, jose deserved being kicked out like SUPER LONG AGO. i mean, the guys are really good this year, like freaking good, and jose has no place there. he's really just a guy with a great smile and a great mentality, nothing more than that. everybody on the show has a great

all programming are the same

2010-07-29T18:59:00.000+09:00

it often baffles and amuses me now when i meet people in trying to let them help me get a job that they know possibly next to nothing about programming/languages. a classic example: "but you do programming, right" "yes i do" "so why can't you do embedded systems" "hm....because embedded system programming are quite different" "but it's programming right?" from then on, i'm wondering if the

gold ep3

2010-07-25T19:20:00.000+09:00

another loose episode. sometimes i think the series is trying so hard to be attacking certain social issues while trying to tackle the issue of "gold"en child education/upbringing is the main cause of its downfall. so in this episode, yuri (amami) tackled the age-old topic of "can there be a platonic relationship between males and females?". and her opinion is that this is only possible when

DOPE song on repeat since yesterday!

2010-07-25T18:51:00.004+09:00

carmen rizzo /f Kate Havnevik "bring it back to me" Download it here: http://www.mediafire.com/?ffjntoelr22bb4n (beware of the version on amazon mp3, because i've bought it, and it's a halifax mix! what a bummer) no one told me what to expect no one showed me how to react i seem to wander through what they say indecisive, incomplete distance in the corner of my eyes brings me back to the

the day i woke up and realised that i'm not THAT technically inclined

2010-07-25T14:47:00.000+09:00

Was reading through all the technical stuff today, and it suddenly dawned upon me that i'm technically inclined, but not like a geek/nerd/nolife kinda technically inclined. you know those people who wake and only think of programming as the only professional work they should do? i think it's very natural for me to wake up and ponder like brain in pinky and the brain, you know, to take over the

d630 gpu death

2010-07-23T16:06:00.001+09:00

so the GPU has died, officially. dell is kinda quite nice about it (this far), as they will send an engineer to my house the next business day, which unfortunately is Monday. My old benq is prolly a bit fucked up, since i do not know why the OS is just messed up. so i think it can be the 3rd XP installation sitting on it already, yikes. so the disk space is kinda low, and after messing around

i was wrong about FF+flash

2010-07-22T18:20:00.001+09:00

after several days of isolating apps and processes. the guilty culprit has been found. it's the quadro 135M on my dell latitude 630. guess what, it's a well-known/documented problem. i wonder what to do with it, other than calling the stupid dell customer service which is damn lame. i wonder if 2 years after, is there even any kind of limited warranty on this thing, which is entirely nvidia's

FF + flash == DEATH

2010-07-21T03:05:00.001+09:00

I'm currently using my lappie that has nvidia 130M on it. since some time last week, i've been experiencing random crashes while watching youtube vidz. I simply thought it's a bad memory access or some random things (e.g. FF plugins) or whatever i'm doing that's causing the problem. like a good kid, today i've decided to do my due diligence. windows updates -- checked FF upgraded to 3.6.6 --

Sony Romantic Electro Wave

2010-07-20T23:21:00.001+09:00

a really beautiful groovy song by yoshinori sunahara can't quite decipher the lyrics, but somehow it doesn't matter....which is strange for me, since i'm very dependent on lyrics if they are present in the song, cos it's part of the song and hangs in the balance. 躺，躺在屋里窗外下着雨没有同情的余地却依然想要一丝怜悯时间转动在我的轴心却无法让中心平衡安定转动着思绪脑筋无法确定怎样解决眼前难题是谁蒙上了眼和心看见了什么摇动着的不安却无法强求他们的接受伸出手却抓不住欲望你触动了吗？

day out shopping

2010-07-19T20:10:00.001+09:00

was just hoping to get a simple pump for my bike, since i've read on various forums that using the gas station pump is a certain recipe for explosion, bursting tires. i'm not too keen to create explosions yeah? given the continued efforts on the war on terror. so i thought, how hard can it be to get any kinda pump? (i prefer a compact pump, but hey, i'm not THAT picky). i walked around my

飞奔

2010-07-16T10:57:00.000+09:00

飞快奔跑到哪里不会知道计划面对他人的阻扰彷徨中集中精力继续相信自己仆仆探讨看见太多的例子却没有头绪地继续飞奔内心很想依靠却又迷恋风景脚步累了却不知该往哪儿靠

陳冠蒨-- what should i do when i´ve got a broken heart

2010-07-13T23:21:00.007+09:00

陳冠蒨 - 两三个和弦每次听这首歌都和动情。这么简单的两三个和弦，却造就了这首如此动人的歌。没有华丽的乐器/配乐/和声，就是这么样的一把电子琴发出和电子吉他？, 贝斯和钢琴的音乐，重叠自己的歌声，就是这么一首由两三个和弦组成的歌。不是因为他选择了另一个对象他没有好言好语怎会有好聚好散那份被遗忘不被感激如冬的心寒往往才是你逃不出去的地方要不要哭一场哭了以后有没有力量为是非评断怎么对怎么错说穿了还是一样愈来愈疯狂陷入了恶性循环的磁场分不清是廉价还是无价的感伤现在怎么办势孤力单没有多余的智商或是绚丽的花样世界在纷乱政治和饥荒扑朔迷离的眼光失去了自由灵魂在向我要更多的补偿先来哭一场哭了以后才会有力量失去了理想昨天和今天和明天还不是一样? -------不能这么办坚持让自己不往坏处想折腾了自己后难道就会更快乐? 最大的安慰莫过于释然

陳冠蒨 -- i know

2010-07-13T22:21:00.004+09:00

就那么一首感性的音乐情不自禁地喃喃唱起内心一阵疾痛情感奔放自如 i know, i know 钢琴的典雅华贵一种半rap半唱的腔调* 说着成熟的无奈和感慨 "有時候又無助的懷疑自己想要的如何確定不去害怕承受害怕打擊只有獨自夜深人靜忘記傷害憂慮和揶揄就会有曙光照进心里" ”我慶幸得到的, 是知道別人的苦未曾經走過的不知道自己的幸福 ” *（这是2002年，还没有周杰伦的年代） PS 顺便推非常好听的《欲言又止》欲言又止詞曲：陳冠蒨想你的時候搭上最後一班的列車用最後一班的夜深深邃地這午夜時分專心的想念慢慢了解在心裏空缺的位子就是你投射的影子換了誰誰也不是淚可以忍不住模糊的層次無言是傷痛的開始冷漠的變成為你喜歡的樣子讓思念燃燒整個城市想你的時候搭上最後一班的列車用最後一班的夜深深邃地這午夜時分專心的想念

a status on twitter/fb brings forth this song

2010-07-12T19:09:00.001+09:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you And high up above

月之恋人观后感

2010-07-12T17:33:00.007+09:00

挣扎了良久才决定看的戏。虽然有木村拓哉，但是也因为有林志玲，所以很难做出决定。最后还是决定看了。剧集是很经典的90年代日剧手法，就是有一定的节奏和发展次序和空间，多角恋爱，暧昧，爱恨交织的戏。其中又看见木村对室内设计有了想法，这和当年《协奏曲》的感觉有点相似。木村在这套戏虽然是主角，但是却觉得他因为和林志玲的戏尴尬，反而很难有所发挥。可能是身高和与语言沟通上的问题吧！有点讽刺，因为戏里所强调的就是人与人之间的沟通和距离，但是戏外的木村和林志玲也许也面对着同样的问题吧！不过有时也觉得木村可怜，就是说演对手戏，对手如果就是一张白纸，你也就很难入戏。这在他和筱原的对手戏的反差可以看得出来。李振冬/阿部力，他出场次数不多，而且戏份来得勉强。很多时候有点莫名其妙。但是听他念台词就觉得很不爽，纯粹是个人感觉罢了。整套戏的亮点，铁定应该是筱原凉子吧！也许因为我年纪大了，

random -- while watching 月の恋人 with theme song LOVE RAIN ～恋の雨

2010-07-12T12:18:00.001+09:00

拥抱着空气欲望的泪滴没有幻想的余地所有思考都纠结一起你看月亮的脸皎洁却善变就像你我的感情在这个拥挤却自私的都市忘情地反复上演顶尖科技都无法传达的无助、孤独、渴望爱却无法得到得到后却又守不住我的心跳加速打着莫斯密码希望有人来解读 *久违了的久保田利伸。长假的歌声响起，时间过得那么不留痕迹却在心底烙下了印。

《余命》

2010-07-12T00:04:00.000+09:00

是在很喜欢松雪泰子的情况下看的。当然很喜欢整套戏。也许真的因为松雪是名副其实的妈妈的关系吧！觉得她在掌握孕妇，分娩，那种身为妈妈的神情和心态都很好。完全没有太过火的感觉。其中，因为看了《月之恋人》，其中有一场林志玲在懊恼的情况下猛打木村的戏。恰好在《余命》里，松雪也有一场因椎名迟了回来，而爆发猛打他的戏。两场戏看下来，不得不佩服松雪（即使是坐在床上，所以没有那么大的爆发力）在掌控这场戏的妙。从眼神和肢体语言，完全演绎出那种又爱又恨的纠结情感。打得恨，却也打得非常无助。林志玲那种手晃着却不知落点在哪里，甚至不敢出力的演绎，真是不敢恭维。再说《余命》，虽然我并不同意延迟治疗癌症的决定，但是这也许就是母爱的伟大吧！偷去了的时间作为主体围绕，有日剧一贯寓意式的处理方式。也许被这种坚韧女性的美深深打动了吧！我也得加油，让自己也坚强点面对目前的困境。

ゴールド　－－日本語の日本語

2010-07-10T14:19:00.001+09:00

現代は昔より　はるかに　複雑な環境が子供達を取り巻いている ~の普及で　裏サイトでの　陰湿ないじめ問題。出会い系。親は　そうした環境にある　ＳＯＳを引き出しやすい関係。馴れ合い　(collusion, conspiracy) 親を　敬えないような関係では礼儀と言い換えた方がより　適切です。ー自分の気持ちを適切な言葉で表現するー処理が適切です。ー適切な指導が必要です。身に付ける　(become part of you) 口を酸っぱ (nag) くなるほど　厳しく　教え込む(teach thoroughly) がみがみする。(nag) 杓子定規　(prudence, appropriate decision with regards to the situation) 他人と交わって、生活する。今時　時代遅れ仕付け　social rules

jdrama -- gold

2010-07-10T09:39:00.000+09:00

I'm a big fan of amami yuki. She can act and sing and look absolutely gorgeous even after 40 (literally). what else can you hope for. Although i'm not a big fan of takashi sorimachi, I think he's a lot less irritating now that he's just an awkward looking ojisan, haha. the plot is kinda interesting, and japan does have some notable olympic sports personalities. So the background and setting

the relentless obssession of education/grades

2010-07-06T00:04:00.000+09:00

You would think that after having worked for 10 years, people won't really ask for what you did in middle school. I was wrong. In a weird pathetic sense. I mean, seriously, who the fuck should care about what I studied 20 years ago? Do I have to remember what I had for lunch then as well? It makes absolutely no sense, it bears absolutely no significance, and there is nothing that I've learnt

中谷美紀　－　壊れた心

2010-07-05T03:40:00.000+09:00

a sudden revisit at night, and as expected, got very emo: 作曲：坂本龍一作詞：中谷美紀こわれたとけいのねじを the damaged hand on the clock まわすとなみだがでたよ when i turn it, tears start darting out もどらないあのひびはほら the days that can't return とおくとおく they are far far away きずぐちにだれもきづかない i didn't put a would on anybody たすけてよ please help me くちてゆくはなのように just like rotting away きえてしまえばそれだけ only to vanish かえるばしょもたないぼくら i don't have a

心动/感动

2010-07-04T13:43:00.001+09:00

只有简单的事情和人，可以选择感动，也可以选择淡然而之。却很多人选择了找茬，贪婪。要的更多，却在追求同时同样失去和牺牲资源。这样的交易，往往不是物质和实质上的考量。因为不容易察觉，不容易测量，只有在大量流失后才可能会产生的一种醒觉。选择有意无意地伤害对方，间接伤害自己。就在这样的伤害过程中却得学会伪装，慢慢地失去了自己，也失去了当初可以让自己感动的能力。找回这种简单的感动，做出让他人也心动的举动。没有心，没有爱，没有生命，没有意义。你今天活过了吗？明天有什样的心动？ while listening to Chris Zippel - Red River

谈情说案　－－评

2010-06-26T23:48:00.003+09:00

我看过galileo，我是福山雅治大叔的fan。不过先别说抄袭的问题，我就以“新剧“的眼光来看谈情说案，真的很弱。大概是4/10的水平吧！ 1)科学认证马虎。我知道科学剧很难写，但是也不能胡扯。声波那个论证破绽百出，最后的故事，追踪IP和字眼的方式更加儿戏。首先，网上通话既然是他写的程式，肯定可以加密处理 (SSL/tunnelling, etc)。他连IP都可以spoof，单单做一个加密有和难? 这样一厢情愿地“捉贼”太过幼稚，是电脑脑障编剧的行为。过后透过镜片烧窗帘的布局。拜托，室内有多少阳光？而且投射的距离，真的能够把这点热量和两广焦距导致窗帘烧起来？未免太过一厢情愿了吧！ 2)马国明和廖碧儿的感情线。拜托。廖碧儿在这出戏，我真的看不出有什么必要，除了花瓶之外。编剧之前说和galileo不同的是感情线。就这么摆一个感情线就变不同？是烂得太过不同了吧！马国明是一个情场浪子，

耍赖

2010-06-26T10:06:00.001+09:00

我有不同的理论，其一:耍赖的功力和年龄成为正比；其二：耍赖的需要和实际能力成为正比；其三：耍赖的次数和权力地位成为正比。也不是什么大不了的事。我妈买了我喜欢吃的菠萝包，结果昨天早上吃下的却是咖喱沙丁鱼?包。有点郁闷，就出了包上面打着格子之外，真的没有哪一点看得出是个菠萝包。也无所谓，最厉害的是肉松包。就是上面全是肉松的那种。油腻而且咸。早上虽然有着即冲咖啡，我却就是咬下一小口就无法继续。晚上告诉我妈，不要以为面包上面打了格子，就肯定是菠萝包。妈：可是他们牌子上是这么写的。我：可也不是他们写什么你就信嘛。妈：我以为可能是不同种类的波罗包。我:上面全是肉松，怎么可能有这种类的菠萝包？妈：可是牌子上他们是这么写的。我：他们的牌子写什么是一回事，你没有鉴定自己所买的东西是一回事。妈：他们牌子上怎么写，我就怎么买。我：可是你没有看到上面全部是肉松吗?这怎么看都不是菠萝包呀！

mother 最终回

2010-06-25T16:02:00.001+09:00

应该说很失望，也有点欣慰。没有大结局那种穿山车的感觉，却是很平淡，平静的继续说故事。淡淡的评述，把主题“母亲”和“母性”表现出来。虽然我对结局不是happy ending有点失望（我就是那么平凡庸俗的），但是我觉得是个令人很期待且牵挂的结局。现实生活中极可能发生的结局吧！觉得脚本对怜南很狠心，那样的孩子给她这样的处理...她可以快乐吗？奈绪无法跟这孩子一起长大，分享她的心情，这不是很残酷吗？其中我所得到的其实应该是，田中裕子说的，你现在为她付出的，她现在的观点或感觉都不是最重要的，最重要的是，她长大后怎么想。我现在对成长的岁月和家庭有什么想法，果然是比较重要的。因为已经得到了洗涤和沉淀，恩恩怨怨也好，就算是悔恨也好，已经长大了，时光不能倒流。

语言/思维/文化/情感

2010-06-25T03:33:00.000+09:00

我应该是所谓“双语”教育下的非典型例子吧！传统中文环境/家庭长大，传统英校，接着进入报章“学华语“（还不必交学费！）。有点Rojak的感觉。自从中学开始，看书都是中文，念书却是英文。毕业后就少看书，多“念书”，就是吸收不同和工作有关或无关的资讯。英文总是我思考的语言，中文却是我感受的语言。有人说这就是母语情节，但是我觉得更大的原因是因为所看的感情文字都是来自中文书，自然而然地就有这样的倾向。语言和生活息息相关，而品行和心情也就随着预言得到了发展。这种感觉也延伸到电脑源语。有人说php的人怎样，也有人说java的人怎样。编程就是编程，怎么也有“判断人性”的心理测验？就是因为不同的电脑源语，在编程时需要采用不同的思维和考量，所以即使本着同样的信念或想法，却因为源语的局限，程序就会有一定的做法。最明显的是学习日文的时候。会不经意地常点头，或者说一些“合口“，甚至会手拿着电话

子宫的记忆观后感

2010-06-24T22:49:00.000+09:00

子宫的记忆。这么迟才看到这部电影，有点惭愧。很慢的沉淀，剧情也有点散，就是没有很好地交待一些人物,比如真人的父母、他的女同学，mika，甚至寺岛进。很自然的大海和蓝天。很自然的风景。很自然的风。没有化妆仍然透着自然却非常摄魂的松雪泰子。关系可以这么自然，感情可以这么自然。在这么自然的风景里发生的事情，却又有点不太自然。不太明白为什么寺岛进这么对待松雪。也不太明白为什么mike对松雪有这么深的怨恨。不过女人的空虚寂寞，且母性，是有点迷人的。这是我再次看到松雪诠释母性。也不太明白为什么她总是演妈妈，也许她是导演眼里最具魅力的妈妈吧！（工藤静香你滚到地球外去。）不过这出戏，松雪也蛮放得开。让不同的男人上下其手，亲密接触。是有点激情，却拍得唯美。最后真人/凉介在水中和松雪拥抱道别，我觉得镜头拉得太远，看不到两人的表情，太过遗憾了。不知导演有什么想法，不过这么激情的对白，

More Singaporeans are staying single

2010-06-22T21:04:00.000+09:00

Link to Story Here Among those aged 30-34, the proportion of singles last year (41.9 per cent for males and 29.8 per cent for females) -- more males remain single, perhaps it's the old maid stigma that moves the girls off the shelf. Marriages between Singapore men and foreign brides in particular made up 78 per cent of all such marriages last year. -- age range unknown. local marrying

today's playlist

2010-06-22T19:49:00.003+09:00

Lost at Sea -- The Egg Exit -- Dine Star Guitar -- The Chemical Brothers Nakigao Smile -- Hinaco 十二少 -- 伊能静你把我灌醉 -- 黄大炜應該 -- 陈珊妮 I know -- 陈冠茜 Züri -- Tosca Relief -- Flipside Distortion -- Flunk Red Sky -- Time Passing *hinaco is also managed by stardust (same company as matsuyuki yasuko. wonder if that's why she's chosen to sing the theme song)

MESSIVE

2010-06-22T16:21:00.000+09:00

Mess? yes. Sive? i guess. This morning I spotted this weird spello/typo on the Singapore Expo page: http://www.singaporeexpo.com.sg/index.php?option=com_events&task=event_details&id=437&Itemid=38 Uploaded with ImageShack.us I was wondering if there is a Freudian slip about being Mess-ive, LOL. Since there is an emaily in place, I thought I would just do a courtesy email to tell the

sylvia chiang talks about run papa run

2010-06-21T17:29:00.000+09:00

i know that this is really late, but it kinda struck a chord with me. there are perhaps too many male directors trying to create female characters in the film that are not as realistic, more stereotypical, or just not very believable in general. I just recall two media pieces that I've watched recently: 《自梳》 and Mother. 张之亮 and 坂元　裕二 are both males, but why are they able to write such good

重看《自梳〉

2010-06-20T21:48:00.000+09:00

有人忌讳这是同性恋题材电影。我觉得一部电影，最重要的就是有感人、共鸣的地方。这应该是第三次看《自梳》了。本来想把它当作TVB剧集一样，让空间有点声音，但是还是不能不被剧情和两个女主角打动。电影太美了，爱得很自然纯粹。也许把男人诋毁了。但是身为女人的我，很同意男人就是很自私的看法。当然不是全部男人，但是只要是绝大部分，那也都呜呼哀哉了。女人在感情上就是那么细腻。无论是女人与男人间，或是女人与女人。因为感情太过丰富而受伤，但是因为受伤而更珍惜爱护自己，也更加懂得不去伤害别人。女人和男人。爱情。活着有需要，死了也有需要。人就是有这么多的迷惑。但是爱就是爱，虽然有不同的爱。但是有了爱，生活会有一种动力。无论是对什么的爱。有人觉得被爱是幸福的。有人觉得去爱更加幸福。我倒觉得一个人有爱，舍得去爱，懂得去爱，就很好了。

Random Thoughts on a Sunday morning

2010-06-20T10:58:00.000+09:00

1) Referees. Sigh, we love to hate them. We talk about tech and all that, but I think at the end of the day, I think we just need more accountability, professionalism and transparency. You can't just say, oh, I saw a ghost, and do something without consequences. That's lying, that's BS. Oh, and the flourish of yellow cards? Even a dumb person can tell you that's excessive, especially for the

Brief thoughts on SYTYCD 7 -- top 11 voted off

2010-06-20T00:26:00.000+09:00

1) As much as I think Alexie is TOO cutesy, I thought Melinda did MUCH MUCH worse. I think she was kept on because she is a tapper, which is unique and can lend more ray of hope to tappers feeling like they can stay on the show. But in terms of character and capability, I think Melinda should be off, really. Some people talk about Christina's teeth, I don't know, she's just ok, not annoying,

Distance-based Fares House->Tanjong Pagar

2010-06-19T22:47:00.002+09:00

Today I went to Tanjong Pagar House->Tanjong Pagar Current Fare: Bus: 0.69 Train: 0.18 (after rebate) Total: 0.87 New Fare: 0.91 MORE EXPENSIVE! this is despite doing a hub and spoke method. and the increase is actually 4.6%! in the middle, it was from tanjong pagar to city hall Current Fare: Train: 0.68 New Fare: 0.71 MORE EXPENSIVE! Increase of 4.4% At the end, it was Capitol Building->

Cry me a River

2010-06-18T11:35:00.000+09:00

I know that this came a little late, but I thought it was absolutely hilarious that my FB page got flooded by flooded Orchard Road pictures. I know it's not good to laugh at others' demise. But hey, I'm not the one responsible for keeping the roads from flooding, and worse, to protect the value of property in this country? People pay taxes to build roads, drains, to catch thieves and robbers.

Distance-based Fares simulation III

2010-06-17T18:07:00.001+09:00

I used to need to commute to ubi. I can either take a bus all the way, or take bus->EW line->Circle line. Bus->Train Current fare system: Bus: $0.69 Train: $0.90 (after rebate) Total: $1.59 New fare system: $1.55 Not bad. Bus Only Current fare system: $1.31 new fare system $1.45 Not good. So true to the spirit, if you change to trains, you will save a few cents, but if you don't, you

Current Fares vs Distance-Based Fares Part II

2010-06-17T13:18:00.003+09:00

*edit edit edit the calculator is here http://www.publictransport.sg/publish/ptp/en/distancefare.html so according to this calculator, i will pay $1.61 with the bus->train->bus route going to bedok. hrmph. but if i take the one bus all the way, it's $1.75. Ah well. so next time you'd better keep changing from buses to trains, cos bus rides will indeed cost more. My previous trip to raffles

日剧 vs 韩剧 vs 其他

2010-06-17T12:21:00.000+09:00

先声明，我是哈日一族。不是那种发烧哈日，不过理性哈日一族吧。就是喜欢日本的文化（包括食物）却没有那种发疯的状况。日剧的魅力，我总觉得除了帅哥美女之外（每个人审美眼光不同，上了荧幕，就是得合眼缘），我最拜服的常是灯光和镜头的运用，以及拍摄背景的严谨。不时会有东京铁塔出现，让你感觉“身在东京”。不然就会有季节性的感觉，食材，穿着，习惯。樱花祭，庙会祭，泡澡，甚至在悼念亡魂，这些风俗习惯都不会太刻意或者旨在煽情，主要表现出日本人的“心”和习惯。这当然和日本人的生活习惯和节奏有关，但是在日剧里看到，还是很窝心的。剧情有人觉得太过完美，注重happy ending。但是港剧也面临同样的问题，皆大欢喜是大众比较容易接受的结局，而且也不会“犯错”。日剧常给我的感觉就是“美”。化妆技术高超，当然人物都很自然美，镜头美，灯光非常到位，场景美，很多摆设、景物都经过精心设计，加重了镜头的感觉。

absolutely mind-boggling and hilarious traffic accidents

2010-06-16T12:08:00.000+09:00

I know, I know, I know. People get hurt and die, I know. It's tragic, it's mindless, think of their families, friends, kids and all that. But you see, I didn't knock them down in such senseless manner. I didn't tell them to drive recklessly, run red lights. I didn't put the license in their irresponsible hands and let them out to kill people. I'm not responsible in deciding whether enough

Distortion by Flunk

2010-06-16T11:27:00.000+09:00

挣扎着沉溺醉人的雨声调情的咖啡挑逗着清醒、意识身处在梦里梦外湿气熏陶慵懒，无助享乐、无为尽情放纵一生悬着什么样的宿命？

Distance-based Fares are but public transport fare hikes in disguise

2010-06-14T17:37:00.006+09:00

so today I was taking public transport from where I live to Raffles Place. You see, one of the TWO (precious) examples given by the distance-based fare scheme was from thomson to collyer quay. i mean, dude, getting to raffles place can't be a one-of-a-kind activity. Let's run some stats and analysis for the problem: so according to google maps, the distance if I were to drive with highway is

bitching time!

2010-06-14T17:16:00.000+09:00

so i just got back from an "interview" with Randstad. Randstad, as I knew, was Justine's (henin) sponsor. So without a doubt, I've had a very very positive opinion of it. What's bad about such an opinion is that it took very little to disappoint me. I came up to the receptionist. She was talking loudly on the phone to a friend about catering for a party (seems to be a church activity). So I

blanket laws and regulations in singapore

2010-06-14T12:43:00.000+09:00

The curious case of the diners and the casino When diners had no intention to gamble it's sometimes amusing and enlightening how barbaric and all-encompassing our laws are. lawmakers often make blanket laws out of kiasu-ism, in fear that anybody can make an escape from a loophole. however, this approach depends on "good people" interpreting the law and applying them. all this is good as a "

Is a college degree still worth it? - latimes.com

2010-06-13T09:13:00.001+09:00

Is a college degree still worth it? Don't train yourself or your children [in work] that a computer can do or a smart kid in China or India can do. Because that's ferocious competition.

Mother 第九话观后感

2010-06-12T16:21:00.001+09:00

每次看完日剧mother后，心情都会很沉重。有人说这样狗血的剧情，是不会在现实生活中发生的。有人也说，为了正义而犯罪，也就落于不正当手法处理事情，也因此可以判断其非正义手段与行为。第一话的剧情，编剧就给了很好的故事背景，并直接让我们接受女主人公奈绪的决定。当然，很多人觉得她可以走合法途径，报警等等。但是纵观警察多次到访却始终无能为力，甚至怜南几乎有生命危险的那一夜。试问，如果你是奈绪，你会有什么样的反应？剧目主题：女性因母性而发狂。有人说，剧情发展到现在，不切题。但是我却不认为。奈绪，为了继美，放下研究院的工作，放弃北海道的生活，回到令她觉得有所亏欠的家里，也让她毅然成为清洁女工。她深知事情一旦被揭露，自己就会成为拐带孩童的重犯，但是为了继美，为了成为继美的妈妈，她义无反顾。这就是疯狂。为了保护一个人，为了一个人的幸福，做到最好，甚至犯罪，这是疯狂的。望月老太太，

Financial crisis? Where got?

2010-06-12T10:13:00.000+09:00

Financial crisis? Where got? Singapore’s millionaire households grew by 35% — the biggest gain worldwide. yay! we are number 1 again!

泣き颜スマイル

2010-05-25T12:36:00.001+09:00

[due to the nature of japanese grammar, the sequence of expression is different from that of English. but I wish to translate the lyrics line by line as much as possible, to not ruin the japanese feel in the lyrics] いつもと违う笑颜 a smile that is different from usual 気付いても although I've noticed it 何も闻かずただ隣で but I didn't ask about it though I'm just right beside you 见つめている gazing at you 今だけでも全て because

jdrama -- mother

2010-05-23T19:30:00.001+09:00

我和几个朋友推荐了这套日剧。不得不在此推多一下。起初看了介绍，虽然对剧情没有多大的透露，但是还是冲着松雪泰子而来。有人说松雪有点深津绘里的样子。但我是比较喜欢声线比较不那么kawaii的女生。太过娇弱造作，也太过符合传统女性的定位。更加受不了的是那种爹声爹气的一贯装可爱。松雪泰子，应该是在救命病栋时留下印象的。编剧虽然很脑障，但是松雪的演出还是很雪亮的。很喜欢她说话的声音，很有韵味。酷酷的，没有那种tasukete的花瓶模式。回到mother这个剧。子役芦田愛菜实在非常厉害。超级可爱的脸蛋，让人不得不心软的笑颜。当然，她的演技也是超过她的年龄的。松雪的眼神，紧紧地拥抱后说，让我做你的妈妈。这句话让这个被虐待的小孩决定放弃亲生母亲，义无反顾地离家出走。那本写满自己喜欢的东西的记事簿，让自己可以在惶恐和不安中逃离现实生活，泪盈满框地离家出走，不想让松雪因拐带孩童被捕。

why I must remain the scholar who does not step out of the door and try to know affairs of the world

2010-03-24T19:31:00.002+09:00

I was out on Bus 63 to get to City Hall today. A China lady got up the bus with me. How did I know she is a mainlander? I guess it's due to some distinctive features. Nothing happened along the way, until I heard the Nokia generic ring tone. I looked around, doesn't seem to be anybody's. It rang again, and that was when she picked up the phone. She started speaking loudly in Mandarin, it was

US PR numbers vs SG PR numbers

2010-03-05T08:51:00.002+09:00

Last year, a total of 59,500 PRs and 19,900 citizenships were granted, compared with 79,200 and 20,500 respectively in 2008. In the US, Family-based immigration is limited by statute to 480,000 persons per year; employment-based immigration is limited by statute to 140,000 persons per year. According to wikipedia, US population is 308,805,000 while Singapore population is 4,987,600. The US:

Being a PR

2010-03-03T08:29:00.001+09:00

I was reading mypaper today about how students from China are disappointed that they were not offered PR status upon graduation. For decades, we have been harsh on Singaporeans, that we are too spoilt and always looking to the govt for a solution, or for the govt to offer things to us on a platter (for e.g. job, education, healthcare, housing). It amuses me that our new Chinese nationals are

Translation of CSJ interview by Yew Lun Tian (Zaobao)

2010-03-01T22:48:00.001+09:00

Chee Soon Juan, a familiar yet distant politician who is frequently being sued in court, attracts controversy with his speech and behavior. With rumours of him ousting SDP chairman/founder Chiam See Tong from the party still fresh in people's minds, Zaobao reporter interviewed him at SDP's 30th anniversary dinner in hope to gain insights to these questions. For the past 30 years in SDP history,

来不及--陈珊妮

2010-02-20T22:29:00.002+09:00

认识陈珊妮是这首歌，今晚听不到还是很遗憾。陈珊妮应该是如今中文乐坛很有才华的女创作人之一，另一个，我认为，应该属黄韵玲了。今晚的演唱会地点，太大，没有女巫店那种熙攘的气氛。没有那种concert的热闹，新加坡人也比较慢热。今晚的演唱会时间，太短。没有那种把好歌唱完，把话说尽的机会。今晚的演唱会没有安哥。我常觉得很奇怪的就是，这么多在“榴莲”举行的明星演唱会都没有安哥，灯在观众热烈鼓掌时亮起。全场有一种huh的感觉，大家也只有依依不舍地离席。由于如今失业对门票的价钱有点犹豫不决。不过到了“榴莲” 还是觉得应该买票体会live的感觉。没有带CD签名，不过我想应该还是值得的。今晚的live似乎简单了一点，尤其在配乐方面。synthesizer 没有比较好的运用。这个缺陷在《幻觉》尤其明显。《幻觉》的音乐是在副歌部分在编曲上有很纤细的层次感，而现场的这个编曲太过单调，

the ESC

2010-02-03T16:20:00.002+09:00

Yes, I wish I can press that and escape the whole bullocks fiasco that sounds like a bunch of kids wrote it up by hashing the internets. The basic problem of Singapore is this: the era of cheap capital and labour is gone; we are no longer a "developing" economy. We have shifted to value-added, knowledge, and an intangible IP-oriented economy. Singaporeans got more educated, that has happened (

Jappy VS US (FF13)

2010-01-20T05:30:00.000+09:00

was intrigued always by why the top 20 of the japanese games are always different from say, the US top 20. It all boils down to this: US: Action/adventure, FPS Japan: a/s/RPGs, puzzles, sim JRPG vs WRPG There have been some anti JRPGs sentiments: http://xbox360.ign.com/articles/106/1060011p1.html. All's said and done, i think JRPGs are schematic yet beautiful. You can bitch about the linear

fell asleep at avatar

2009-12-24T23:41:00.001+09:00

I blame it on jetlag, erm, whatever. A and I thought that watching it in 3D for 2 2/3h can be part of the reason too. i find avatar amusing and fun, but prolly not in epic proportions. I might have a better evaluation of it erm, when I've watched it in its entirety, to be fair. Went to wegman's after, picked up some clam chowder, sausages (smoked german's the best!), instant ramen (man, i need

がっかり　－浪人見たい人生

2009-12-23T20:26:00.002+09:00

どこからどこまで、行方分からないけど、自信はどんどんあまり持っていなくなる。冬はさむくて、家にかくれている。また一年かかった、一体何がやっているのを反省している。人生をもったいないにするなと言って、本当になにもできないです。 3週間後国に帰って、また就職して、人生を片付けなければいけないですね。

happy in DC

2009-12-22T14:54:00.003+09:00

did not have a flight booked out of US, that actually denies me of a flight in. DOH. I can fully understand why that's the case, cos they want to make sure people are not planning to stay there illegally. due to my flexi schedule and plans, I haven't booked that ticket, and to my sheer horror, i can't fly out of Japan. i started explaining to the counter staff why i haven't booked the flight